So Monday was my first day back to work and it was one of the hardest days ever for me. All Sunday I didn't want to leave his side and I was a little emotional, well lets be honest every time I would think about it I was emotional. Then Monday morning came and as I was getting ready he woke up which I was so happy about so I could hold him and squeeze him before I left. By the way Dani my good friend is tending for us and she actually comes to our house which makes it so much easier - it's awesome and she is fantastic with kids so I know she will do great (but it doesn't make things any easier!) Anyway so I was just hugging him like crazy and then when the she knocked on the door I started tearing up and so I told her to be ware I was a little emotional so I let her start feeding him and I went in to say goodbye to Josh. He just gave me a big hug and I started just sobbing it was really hard I am getting teary thinking about it right now. He told me if it didn't work we would figure it out. So I went back in and kissed Jett and left and I cried all the way to work! I was fine until people would ask me about it and then I would cry again. I am doing better today I still really have a hard time leaving in the morning, but hopefully it will get better. I guess if I wasn't sad to leave him I wouldn't be a very good Mom. It's amazing how much you can love someone so quickly! I will make it - thanks to everyone for the nice texts and calls to check up on me. I have such great people in my life it really helps out during the hard times.
Jett is doing great though he is such a cheerful baby and so stinking cute. We are truly blessed! He is 8 weeks today - I can't believe that! I can tell the time is going to fly - so we better enjoy every second right!
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I wanna see this cute little Jett! Sorry you had to go back to work. Its interesting you post this cuz I was typing Grandma's Journal right before i read your post and she was talking about not wanting to retire from teaching! She loved her "girls" she taught and loved the faculty. But then she was happy she got to spend more time with her girls and loved that. Totally different situation than yours but still interesting to read about and your post reminded me of it. Anyway, good luck!!! Sorry this is a long comment!
I can't believe he's already 8 weeks...ahhh!
Hang in there! You're a GREAT mom! Love ya :)
It does get easier. I know that doesn't make you feel any better, but hopefully, it will give you a little reassurance.
I can't even imagine what you are going through! I know it would be hard. When we first got coco it was hard to leave and it was only a dog! I know that sounds SO silly, but that is how it was. I can't imagine leaving my own son or daughter. If you need anything let me know! He is getting really big and staying sooooo cute! I need to come and see him! SOON!
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